School's back! *distant wailing*
First of all, I don't wanna sound like I'm complaining (although yes, indeed I am) but summer went by wayyy too fast. It feels like just yesterday I was sitting in class listening to my Spanish teacher explaining the differences between direct object pronouns and normal pronouns (which, I still don't understand; if you're reading this, it's a cry for help)
I'm excited for school to start. I'm ready to take on the hallways, to beat the clock rushing to class and to surrender my sanity to earn an A on a coloring project.
What I'm not necessarily happy about is our new schedule. Instead of having seven, 50-ish minute classes, we now have four and they are double the time. Yes, we will be more productive, yes, I will finally get to finish an essay in class, and yes, I will get much longer naps without the fear of the bell or public humiliation.
But I'm also gonna be stuck in a concrete box with people,-none of which it seems I will know-, for about two hours. I really hope that I'll like my fellow classmates and that mutually we can agree on being friends or leaving each other alone. Also, the fact that I have gum doesn't imply in any way that I can or will share it. (Though I will if you ask nicely)
Those parts make me miss homeschool a little bit. When I had issues with the people/person in my class, I just went to my room. It was perfectly acceptable to study in my room, wearing pajamas, with a box of granola in my hands and headphones in my ears.
Overall I think I'm just a little scared. As of late, I don't share any classes or lunch with any of my close friends, friends or even acquaintances and there are two ways I could look at this situation.
One, I could see this as an opportunity to meet new people and make new friends and sit at a new lunch table. At the moment that sounds terrifying. I care about people and I love making new friends, but I did that last year; I already made good, strong relationships with good people who won't get me into trouble or dare me to actually eat the school pizza by itself, as opposed to smothering it with green beans. (Don't judge till you've done it. The green beans give it some needed flavor)
The way I see it right now, I planted all the seeds last year. I made good friends and this year I was to enjoy the benefits from allowing myself to be socially awkward and meet my fellow humans. I didn't want, actually, I don't want, to redo that process. Of course, there will be people who I'll know and recognize and I'll start making friendships with them, but I still feel like I'm starting from level zero when last semester I made it to at least level five.
The other way I could see this would be a horrible, terrible, earth-shattering, heartbreaking experience and just decide not to try at all. Why make more friends when there's no guarantee that I'll see them next year? Why make friends at all when in a few years we'll all be going to different colleges? Why make friends ever when there's pizza and Netflix and ice cream? (That one's easy to answer, my mom's on a permanent health kick and I doubt I'll being seeing much of ice cream and pizza for a while)
Obviously, those are over-exaggerated thoughts, but I won't deny having thought them. Also, I'd like to point out that my public schooled friends (hi guys) probably see all this as no big deal 'cause they deal with this every year. I'd like to reiterate that I'm not complaining but I'm more weighing the scales of reasons to try or not, really just sorting out my brain and deciding what I should do, versus what I want to do. Plus, again, I'm kinda new to this.
I think I'm going to start off slow and quiet. The first few weeks, I'm gonna stay in the back and observe and people watch (Watching, not stalking; big difference) and figure out how things work. Then I'll start picking people I want to be friends with. Then I'll ask them basic questions and get to know them and stuff like that till I have at least one friend in each class. That won't be too hard, right?
In other news, I GOT A NEW BACKPACK AND IT HAS MORE POCKETS THAN GUYS' CARGO SHORTS! That really makes me happy. And I have new notebooks to write in, and new pencils to write with. AND I HAVE A LIT/COMP CLASS AGAIN AND THAT MAKES ME HAPPIER THAN MY BACKPACK. Oh and I'm taking a car maintenance and repair class so I'll get to do some hands on stuff (though those will be in the last weeks of the class, five weeks of rules and safety protocol first).
At the end of the day, I have a lot to be thankful, excited and happy about for this coming school year. Yeah, there's some stuff that I'm not exactly looking forward to but I'll just think of it like a bag of Skittles; In order to get the red and green ones, you have to buy the whole package and be okay with having to eat the purple and yellow ones too.
So yeah, sorry for the long post and happy new school year to my fellow students and parents, try not to have too much fun without us. God bless ya'll and have a good week.
I'm excited for school to start. I'm ready to take on the hallways, to beat the clock rushing to class and to surrender my sanity to earn an A on a coloring project.
What I'm not necessarily happy about is our new schedule. Instead of having seven, 50-ish minute classes, we now have four and they are double the time. Yes, we will be more productive, yes, I will finally get to finish an essay in class, and yes, I will get much longer naps without the fear of the bell or public humiliation.
But I'm also gonna be stuck in a concrete box with people,-none of which it seems I will know-, for about two hours. I really hope that I'll like my fellow classmates and that mutually we can agree on being friends or leaving each other alone. Also, the fact that I have gum doesn't imply in any way that I can or will share it. (Though I will if you ask nicely)
Those parts make me miss homeschool a little bit. When I had issues with the people/person in my class, I just went to my room. It was perfectly acceptable to study in my room, wearing pajamas, with a box of granola in my hands and headphones in my ears.
Overall I think I'm just a little scared. As of late, I don't share any classes or lunch with any of my close friends, friends or even acquaintances and there are two ways I could look at this situation.
One, I could see this as an opportunity to meet new people and make new friends and sit at a new lunch table. At the moment that sounds terrifying. I care about people and I love making new friends, but I did that last year; I already made good, strong relationships with good people who won't get me into trouble or dare me to actually eat the school pizza by itself, as opposed to smothering it with green beans. (Don't judge till you've done it. The green beans give it some needed flavor)
The way I see it right now, I planted all the seeds last year. I made good friends and this year I was to enjoy the benefits from allowing myself to be socially awkward and meet my fellow humans. I didn't want, actually, I don't want, to redo that process. Of course, there will be people who I'll know and recognize and I'll start making friendships with them, but I still feel like I'm starting from level zero when last semester I made it to at least level five.
The other way I could see this would be a horrible, terrible, earth-shattering, heartbreaking experience and just decide not to try at all. Why make more friends when there's no guarantee that I'll see them next year? Why make friends at all when in a few years we'll all be going to different colleges? Why make friends ever when there's pizza and Netflix and ice cream? (That one's easy to answer, my mom's on a permanent health kick and I doubt I'll being seeing much of ice cream and pizza for a while)
Obviously, those are over-exaggerated thoughts, but I won't deny having thought them. Also, I'd like to point out that my public schooled friends (hi guys) probably see all this as no big deal 'cause they deal with this every year. I'd like to reiterate that I'm not complaining but I'm more weighing the scales of reasons to try or not, really just sorting out my brain and deciding what I should do, versus what I want to do. Plus, again, I'm kinda new to this.
I think I'm going to start off slow and quiet. The first few weeks, I'm gonna stay in the back and observe and people watch (Watching, not stalking; big difference) and figure out how things work. Then I'll start picking people I want to be friends with. Then I'll ask them basic questions and get to know them and stuff like that till I have at least one friend in each class. That won't be too hard, right?
In other news, I GOT A NEW BACKPACK AND IT HAS MORE POCKETS THAN GUYS' CARGO SHORTS! That really makes me happy. And I have new notebooks to write in, and new pencils to write with. AND I HAVE A LIT/COMP CLASS AGAIN AND THAT MAKES ME HAPPIER THAN MY BACKPACK. Oh and I'm taking a car maintenance and repair class so I'll get to do some hands on stuff (though those will be in the last weeks of the class, five weeks of rules and safety protocol first).
At the end of the day, I have a lot to be thankful, excited and happy about for this coming school year. Yeah, there's some stuff that I'm not exactly looking forward to but I'll just think of it like a bag of Skittles; In order to get the red and green ones, you have to buy the whole package and be okay with having to eat the purple and yellow ones too.
So yeah, sorry for the long post and happy new school year to my fellow students and parents, try not to have too much fun without us. God bless ya'll and have a good week.
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